Knowledge is a powerful thing. Now, knowing things does not make you an expert, a genius, or right! No one can be right ALL of the time. You have to be aware when something you are doing is really degrading to your friend.
I know what it’s like to be the target of someone’s pain and hurt. I know I have owned up to causing hurt and pain to someone else. I know what it’s like to lose someone without getting a chance to say goodbye. I know what it means to be a true friend no matter what. I know that when someone cuts you out of their life, you do not stay around trying to mend the fence or bridge the gap when they keep cutting the rope. I know you do not pull your arm back on a friend who reaches out for your hand. I know that people make mistakes and everyone deserves a second chance! I know that despite everything, I really miss my best friend!
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So what do you do when you have cut everyone you used to be friends with out of your life (basically) to spend as much of your spare time with the best friend that meant everything to you and that best friend stops talking to you? Well, that is the golden question and the one that has brought me to this new phase in my life. I became enlightened about a year ago and acknowledged to myself that my best friend (well, she used to be) was right about a couple of things she said – to others, not to me. I have since withdrawn myself from the scene and am flying solo again … I sure do enjoy the quiet! I wish she would confront me on the issue and really hear me out and know/realize I am telling the truth and then go from there … but that obviously will never happen. I was never able to convey this to her so I ignored what I knew to be true because she was the only one I really cared about in the whole situation! Now that things are too distorted and she believes things about me that are totally untrue, I am putting it here for the Gods to take in the hope of being aided by them in escaping the pain of knowing that my best friend hates me for reasons that are not true.
May your God or Goddess never allow you to experience the pain that I have known in my life. Learn from the enlightenment of others and me …
Live like there’s no tomorrow
Laugh like you did as a child
Love like you’ve never been hurt
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In the course of my enlightenment I have discovered that I have survived a lot over my years of adulthood and I am a survivor. In the healing process, I have mended bridges with my old friends from my past that I had previously cutoff in order to have more time to grow spiritually with my best friend. I am pleased that they have accepted my gestures and still love me as they always have. I vow to never be that kind of person again … to cut off those who love you for who you are to be around someone else. I am grateful that I have a few friends that stick around no matter what has happened or how much time has passed! That is the type of friend I am and have always been to all of those friends I really love (and let me tell you, there are only a few that fall into that category), no matter what happens/happened or how much time passes – I am still here!
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Namaste
