I find that there are not enough good people … I mean honestly, truly, good-hearted people left in the world! I have witnessed and been involved in the falling out of female friends and I have to say … women are vicious and seem to enjoy stepping on the heart and soul of someone they are ousting!
I grew up as a tomboy … played football and baseball on all boy teams, played basketball, ran track, climbed trees, played with hot wheels and matchbox cars in the dirt, and ran around in the woods! I was never interested in dolls or other “girl approriate” things. I never cared about getting married, dating, or being a mother! I did not spend countless hours in the bathroom … I simply threw on a baseball cap and ran out the door! I get along great with guys … except for the fact that they want more than a friendship with me!
So because of that I have sought out female friends in hopes of belonging as a woman. I have only had 3 women that I considered a best friend in my adult life and it was a great feeling. I considered one of them my “soul-friend” and we used to talk several times a day! We were so much alike and different that it deepened our friendship! I have always been alone but was proud of the fact that I had actually found my “soul-friend” and I miss her! We had far more good times than bad! Other people are the reason we had our falling out but she talks to them now. I am accepting that she will not mend our bond and am letting go of that hope.
Good vs. Bad
Light vs. Dark
Love vs. Hate
I really have come to the conclusion that I just completely suck at picking friends and I am going to keep myself to myself! I cannot put myself through the ordeal of trusting someone else with my whole soul again.
Good times, good laughs, good hearts, good deeds, good friends, etc. should always outweigh the bad … do not let the bad win!
Namaste!
